“She’s fun, easy. I like talking to her.” I take off running, halt, turn, and catch the pass Drew drills into my hands. Tucking the ball tight against my side, I turn again, run back to my starting place then toss it back to him. “And, no, I don’t want to fuck her.”

This is mostly true. Mac has a natural sexiness that I’d have to be deaf, dumb, and blind not to notice. But I’m not going to even entertain thoughts of sex and Mac. No. Way. That would make me a dirty, low bastard, and I don’t want to be that with Mac.

Drew palms the ball. “I didn’t ask that.”

I catch another pass, this one launched far over my head, forcing me to leap high. “You were thinking it.”

Drew laughs a little. “Yeah, okay, I was. But only because you usually want to fuck any girl who comes into your orbit.”

“Okay, fine,” I admit, starting another route. “You got me, I am a sex god.” I talk over Drew’s obnoxious snort. “Truth? Had we met before the texts, I’d have tried something. She’s funny and smart and hot. Who wouldn’t want her? Shit, I don’t know, man. I just like her. I really like her. She’s the first person I want to talk to. Every day.”

Drew cocks his head, his mouth twitching as if he’s fighting a smile. Annoying. “Uh, bud,” he says with a barely repressed chuckle. “That’s how I felt about Anna. From the very start.”

I frown, gripping the ball tight in my hands. “Ivy and I are just friends, though.”

His silence is deafening. And I resist the urge to shift my stance. “This relationship is important to me. Hell, she flat-out said she feels safe with me because we’re just friends. I’m not going to fuck up that trust by hitting on her.” I want to be better than that. For her.

My oldest friend in the world looks at me like I’ve grown horns, then slowly blinks. “You’re not tucking the ball in fast enough when you catch on the right,” he says. “Take better control.”

Asshole. But he’s right, so I can’t complain. “That’s it?” I ask him instead. “No more ribbing?”

“Naw.” Drew spins the football on the tip of his finger before he palms it. “I was just curious.”

Right. Sure. I continue to run short routes, catching each ball Drew sends my way, practicing quick hands, tight ball tucks, and balance. He waits until I’m done and dead on my feet, a fresh batch of sweat coating my skin and soaking the waistband of my shorts, to attack.

“I want to meet her.”

Why that idea breaks me out in a cold sweat, I don’t know.

Four

Ivy

Gray sends me a pass to view his practice. Due to the intensity of prepping for the post-season, the coach has put the stadium on lockdown, not wanting a bunch of fans watching his team as they prepare. So only a few people are allowed inside.

Since I now have my car, I head over, parking in the student lot. Being on a campus brings back memories of my own school. And as much as I loved college, I’m not sorry to leave it behind.

The team is already in the thick of it when I arrive. It’s a cold, crisp day, the winter sun weak yet shining onto the field and my section of the stadium. Snuggling down further into my puffy coat, I cup the cocoa I brought with me and watch.

Even though he has his helmet on, Gray is easy to spot, tall and lean in comparison to the stocky linemen he’s standing next to. They’re sporting full pads and jerseys today but wearing running shorts on the bottom. I track Gray’s number eighty-eight as they huddle then break to get into formation.

I love sports. It’s always been a part of my life. Football is no exception. I grew up with Hall of Fame winners coming over for Sunday dinner. I have numerous Super Bowl-winning “uncles” and have standing tickets to all major sporting championships. I might easily have turned jaded. But I haven’t. I still get a thrill watching athletes perform at top level.

But it is abundantly clear that Gray’s team is off their game. Missed passes, bad timing, sloppy defense, uncoordinated offense. Squabbles break out, players’ tempers on edge. Oddly, when viewed as individuals, it’s also clear that the players are excellent. Their talent is evident. It’s when they must play as a team that the weakness is exposed.

The head coach seems to agree. He nearly has a fit after yet another bad play. I say nearly because he’s one cool customer. Most would be shouting. The offensive coordinator is, his face purple as he bellows at his players to get their “damn heads out of their asses and fucking get it together.” The defensive coach has been reduced to ribald cursing that’s basically one long spew of, “Fuck!” But the head coach merely whips off his hat and slaps it against his thigh before pacing along the sideline.

Whistles are blown and the players go to their respective coaches. The rest of practice consists of endless and brutal drills.

When they’re finally set free, the guys trudge off the field with their heads hanging low. It’s too silent, and I ache for them. Slowly, I make my way down to the field. One lone player has remained. Gray pulls off his pads and jersey with a single tug, sliding the entire kit over his head and tossing it next to his helmet on the ground with a look of self-disgust.

“Hey, Cupcake,” I say softly as he plops onto a bench seat.

“That was some shit, eh?” His usual smiling mouth is a flat line. “Fuck it, we’re so fucking off now.”

“Is it because of Drew?” Losing the starting quarterback can often mess with a team. From talks with Gray, I know Drew was their leader and their friend.